The John Holland story continues from last week… (https://consciousmanifestor.com/manifesting-mini-series-john-holland/)
So after meeting John and all the other incredible Hay House authors, I headed directly to visit Mom. As I was driving, I contemplated how wonderful and comforted I felt from John’s comments telling me that my Father who has passed away 10 years ago was here as my Mother was transitioning. Just then a thought struck me so hard in my face that I actually slowed the car down, because it felt like I had physically hit something. Actually, I had. I hit the hard realization that I was so focused on getting my message “out there” and into the world, that I was neglecting to begin with my own wonderful family. I realized that my very own beloved Mother, although unbeknownst to most, didn’t share the love for herself that everyone else felt for her. I realized the importance of discussing this with her now, as she was beginning her transition out of the world. My message is simple: that it is important to Love Yourself First, which then creates ABUNDANCE in all areas of your life (The Conscious Manifestor Abundance App http://bit.ly/ConsciousManifestorApp offers positive daily self love affirmations)
You see, Mom quit eating very much food at all for weeks. But instead of passing, she continued to painfully exist. It was a difficult physical place to be, and when that happens, there’s usually something left unsaid or undone that keeps people in this realm, and I wondered what that was. What was left undone or unsaid in her lifetime? Of course, only God and the soul can decide when the timing is perfect, but it seemed like something important was keeping her here.
When I arrived, I sat on her bed with her and wondered how I was going to have this important conversation with her. I realized with questionable time remaining how many things I hadn’t said to her; I hadn’t told her how wonderful she was or how important she was to me. So I shared with her, “Mom, you know everyone REALLY loves you, but I’m wondering, do you love yourself?” Surprisingly, she very quickly answered me. “No.” So I said, “Well, Mom, it’s really important that God knows that you love yourself, so can you say that out loud for me?” Because Mom suffered from Glaucoma and Macular Degeneration in both eyes, she couldn’t see the tears that were streaming down my face. So she meekly said, “I …love….myself.” I was glad to hear the words, but it really lacked conviction. So I reminded her once again shared with her what an incredible Daughter, Sister, Friend, Wife and Mother she was throughout her lifetime, and asked her to say it again, and mean it. “I LOVE MYSELF!” she said, this time with meaning! WOW! How powerful those words were, and how wonderful that felt. By this point, I was also sniffling, and my selfless Mother was actually worried about me, that I had a cold or was sick. She reminded me that I needed take good care of my health. I assured her it was just my (nonexistent) allergies so she wouldn’t worry about me. This is how beautiful she was, always putting others first and caring about everyone else, no matter what was going in her life, not thinking about how much pain she was in herself.
I certainly understand the transformational power of the message of Love, but never did I imagine the importance that one conversation would have on both our lives. What an incredible moment with an incredible woman that I had the extreme honor of knowing in this lifetime. I hope I can be half the wonderful woman she was, I will be doing well. I LOVE YOU MOM!!
So Manifestors….Has there ever been a time when you or someone you know didn’t practice self love? Have you told your Mother/Father how wonderful they are to you and what a difference they’ve made in your life? When was the last time you gave either of them a hug?
Until Next time….